What did I do?

So, I have a friend. I won't put his real name here but let's call him Bob. So Bob right here, I've known him for 7 months and for that 7 months we have build a special relationship between us, as I believe it is so. I think of him as my best friend. He's a really thoughtful one. Sweet and caring. Funny and lovable. Though sometimes he could be in a bad mood. I bet those girls that he went out with are lucky. Well, probably if this guy could read this he won't believe me. But this is what I think of Bob. Alright, so at the beginning of our friendship, I started liking him. Till I came to the point where I self-pitied myself because of the thought that he would never like me too. It was my first time thinking all of those because first, I don't think I am beautiful for guys eyes, you know what I mean. Well, I confronted him at some point. I later found out that he does like me too. But then, we could never be together because I don't wanna have a boyfriend yet and he does not want to have a girlfriend again. This all happen over the summer. Now, summer passed and it's school time. I've always thought of him since that confrontation and the talkings and all. Then, my greatest fear came to happen. I was kind of preparing myself for what would happen when school starts again. When school starts again. Yeah. Well, before meeting Bob, he was a different person. I don't know him at all though we go in the same church. He's been in my church twice as long as I have been in but I never notice him because he wasn't active, along with his brother. But that all changed when we had a camporee and they attended it. Anyway, so I was saying, he had many girlfriends back then. You know, that's usually how teenage life, or not even teenage but young people in the age of, most likely to be, 12, is here in Saipan. They get into relationships in that ages and even younger. It isn't a big deal here though. It was just part of their life style. I predicted that he would have a girlfriend when school starts and yes, it was a good prediction because it did happen. I thought I have prepared for it but I was wrong. I got hurt. And blah blah blah. Well, it's quite a long story and I could tell you about it later. After all that happened, - well, there's actually more that happened and I won't tell ya for now - we had a good relationship as best friends. Not a long time ago, I told him that I don't like him how I use to like him. I just like him as my little brother. Yeah, I'm older than him. Anyway, well, also, at that same time, I realized something that was unexpected ever before. I feel in-love with his brother. And it's all crazy. It's another story. Here's my point of why I am writing this. I know that Bob is mad at me. I don't know what is the reason and I'm trying to figure it out. Just today, I was texting him. When I said goodbye, I said, God bless you dear and something something something. Then he replied, " Oh and one thing don't call me dear. I don't feel comfortable. bye" It was an ouch to me. Yeah, what was that? It was just one of my ways to show that they are my dear friends. But was it wrong for me to say that? No right? And that really threw me off. I miss him. I miss how he was before. I miss all of him. What has happened? I messed up everything between me and him. How can I mend this? What has been with us? Is the friendship breaking apart? I'm afraid it is and I don't want it to. It will be the most painful things that could happen to me.